Revelations are curious things, and sometimes the most profound of realizations to some are ones that are so obvious to others. But I suppose, the path to understanding ourselves is more about the journey to the destination than the destination itself.
A recent run-in with my ex, who decided it best to get arrested rather than obey my protection order, left me opening mail from the Domestic Violence Advocate and the Prosecutor’s office. In it, was a request for a Victim’s Impact Statement.
Although the request sent me to my Google Docs and I wrote several pages on several different days, none granted me the words I wished to use. I wanted to achieve a few things:
- I wanted to be cognizant that anything I write will go into the public record.
- I do not want to be weak, but I want him to understand I will utilize my protection order to the full legal extent I am allowed.
Though I still don’t have anything down I feel comfortable sharing, I discovered some things about myself through this process.